small miracles

I'm going to New York again for Thanksgiving this year.  I really didn't think I'd be able to because ticket prices were so ridiculous.  At one point, they were over $900.  And then one night, Amanda asked for the status of my ticket and as I was dreading telling her I couldn't come, I did a quick search on Kayak and found a round trip ticket for $360.  The return time is painful (6.30am on Sunday) but the price was right so I snatched it up.  I won't even really be missing work.  A lovely surprise!

Finances will be tight for the trip and a little afterward, but I can manage it.  I'll most likely be dipping into my savings for it, but I think it will be worth it.  Probably not the most fiscally responsible thing to do, but after the shitty summer I had, I'm raising my middle finger to fiscal responsibility on this one.  I just won't be buying a new pair of Vogs from the Fluevog store this trip.  I wouldn't be able to fit them in my luggage anyway.  My goal is to go with a backpack and a purse.

I'm still really emotional about certain subjects.  Just thinking about some things (like how amazing my parents are) can bring me to tears instantly so that I have to take a minute to compose myself.  I don't know if that's even hormone related.  This summer was pretty goddamn eye-opening.  It's overwhelming the amount of love I felt from people, some of whom I never expected to send out that kind of juju.  I'm still overwhelmed by it; thus, the hair-trigger tears.  There are a few disappointments that came to light as well, but for the most part, I'm just amazed at the people I am lucky enough to have in my life, whether through the silly internet or by luck of birth.

Yeah, so I was starting to lose it during that paragraph; had to take one of my "stop losing your shit" pills.  I don't like taking them, as I don't have any refills available.  On the plus side, I'll be able to sleep easily tonight, no sleeper-pills necessary.  I'm having dinner with my folks so I will probably be alright for sleeping anyway, belly all full of food.  The kitties have been pretty snuggly lately too, so sleeping isn't much of an issue.  My hips and lower back do get stiff more often now.  That's a radiation side effect.  I assume I'm going to have to deal with it forever.  Still better than the flipside.